1 thing I've learned in my lifetime

I will never, ever ever never ever EVER never, ever ever never never NEVER ever EVER never, ever (EVER!@!!) ever never ever EVER EVVVVVVVVVVERRRRR play the "If you don't know, I'm not going to tell you game" EVER in my entire life again.

Not only is it infuriating, I honestly, as GOD as my witness have NO idea what I did to someone to tick them off. I know what you might be saying..."Yeah, yeah...just apologize, you know what you did. It can't be THAT much of a surprise". No, honestly folks, I have no clue. NOT A SINGLE SOLITARY CLUE.

I looked at things over time, things I said in certain conversations, things I've saved and read and re-read and I can honestly, unequivocally have come to the conclusion that I have no idea what has happened.

Not ONLY do I have no idea what has happened, I have no idea on how to communicate that very fact to the individual in question. I've apologized (for something deeply offensive, yet unknown to me), told them that I loved them and am there for them no matter WHAT....and still I'm given the cold shoulder and the infamous message of "If she doesn't know what she did, I'm not going to tell her".

What is that? I mean honestly...look at it... where does it get them? Where does it get me? Where does it get the situation? No where.

I just play endless, circling mind game wondering what I could have said differently when approaching her, apologizing to her, emailing her, trying to call her.....I reviewed all my options and have come to the same conclusion. I have no idea how to express to her that I have no idea what I've done, that whatever I've done that upset her was NEVER meant to upset her (taken out of context, misunderstood, never meant to hurt her), and that the ball is in her court if she wants to get past it (as I have no idea on how I can be more proactive...).

Anyhow, if you're reading this I love you very much, and I just want to get past this....like I said, and mean sincerely, I have no idea what offended you so much. I know that probably infuriates you more, but please try to see things from my end for 1/2 a second. I want to desperately resolve this....and if you want to too...you know where to reach me...the ball is in your court--and that's if you want to resolve it.