Well, I guess I didn't get it

I had written a test for a 911 dispatcher position with the City I work for. Sounds pretty sweet eh? Great paying for a person in my position. Money is tight and I was very much looking forward to the possibility of starting a new career.

The testing happened on Tuesday and I studied quite hard. My life was on hold for a while (chores, school work and sanity) for this test. I knew it would all be worth it in the long run, so there were no worries.

After the test, the HR woman said that if I got a call before the end of Friday that would be good, and I would proceed to the next level starting on Monday. If not, then I would get a letter next week...Which would be bad.

While there are technically 1.75 hours left in the day, I've lost hope and succumbed to the fact that I didn't get the passing mark they required. To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. I cant' even express how I feel anymore. I tried a similar test last year and got 69% out of the required 70%. Yes. That's right. 69%. When you have 69% and there are 575 people writing for 3 positions I suppose you have to draw the line somewhere.

I go on; it's not fair; but I go on.
What else can I do?

I've made a decision*

*Disclaimer: Before people (especially my mother, sisters, friends, family members...) start to gasp, make baby booties or buy stocks in Osh Gosh Bogosh, I just want to make things very clear. Please read my blog very carefully, and read what it says. There are no hidden meanings, implied statements or the like. Thank you!

I've been on the pill for about 6 years now. Quite a long time in the realm of "birth control pill" world. I was on it for menstrual cycle reasons, pregnancy reasons and oddly enough health reasons (acne). I've diligently popped a pill every evening before I went to sleep, and rode out the hormone injection every night in bed.

Being on the pill is so great. Despite having to remember to take it EVERY night, it definitely had its advantages. I could time my period to the hour. My cycle is that predictable. Apparently it reduces cramping--I'm not so sure about that one...And it's supposed to reduce acne too. Again; not so sure about that one since I still break out. Yes-it's a sad story. Then again, it was a benefit when I first started the pill, so it must have helped!

Well, I've made a decision.

I'm nearly 30 (so I hope my cycle has straightened itself out by now), and I hope I don't have to have acne plagued skin once I get off of it, but I've decided to take myself off of the pill (please re-read disclaimer again).

I've gone ahead and decided on this--I must say I'm a bit scared. I haven't had a normal period in years; so the cramping I've had until now probably won't compare to what I'll experience when the wrath of my uterus kicks in.....in.....in...dangit. I don't remember how many days my cycle is/was!

So, I'll be returning to the days where I'll be carrying 'emergency' tampons, wondering if it'll show up any second now, and frantically counting days on the calendar. Wish me luck...knowing me, I'll let you know how the first "aunt flow" session is. I think it's going to be a LuLu!

Working out + Ballerina moves =

Pain.

So, I decided to start working out again. Bought some new, simple, DVDs so I'm all set.
The DVD exercise video I did last night was made by Self Magazine, and claimed to be an 'easy' video. Great! Just what I need! I put on my workout clothes, got some water, put on my runners and I was ready to go!

After doing the "warm-up" which was a little tough, we got right into the workout. "We're now going to start our ballerina section of the workout".

Huh?

"Ballerina" section? This is supposed to be an exercise video. After careful examination of the DVD case and a shrug of the shoulders, I continued; giving the DVD the benefit of the doubt. I mean, how hard could this possibly be? It's a 35 minute video, couple of sissy ballerina bounces and this is supposed to raise my heart rate and help me to get fit? I press on...

I cannot describe to you all, how much agony I'm in today. Yes, you heard it here.

Agony.

Who would have known a plie could hurt so much? My inner thighs quiver, my hips hurt and my shoulders are stiff from holding my arms upright the whole time.

I have a whole new respect for ballerinas. I can't believe how simple they make everything look. So graceful, floaty and beautiful; while I just look like a duck out of water.

I have a set of DVDs coming in from eBay of other exercise related stuff. I'm looking forward to committing myself to doing more cardio and the like. I'll let you all know how it goes.

In the meantime, way to go to all the ballerinas out there....you're all better people than I am!